i feel much gratitude this morning. early this morning.... i wrote a thank you note to a teacher whos been pretty helpful to me... shes been helpful during my many days of not realizing the gratitude i need. i have been a slight pain i believe in more than few behinds... i know it because sometimes I KNOW i ask for a lot of help sometimes inconviencing others. I didnt quite realize that I was. i suppose I have a habit of doing that... i guess awareness is the first step right? i take advantage of people sometimes. sOmetimes i feel rather entitled . it feels like a relief admitting that. i feel entitled... pretending is the worst. and then the guilt for your behavior when others have fallen away because they view you as too needy... but to come to this relaization is a break through that I am so happy for this morning... because now I can change my behavior. i AM THANKFUL to be able to have this human ability. TO CHANGE!

my boyfriend is someone else who i am so thankful for... hes the best hes sweet and carrying and is really helping me make a better life for myself and for that I am grateful...

This mornign I went to the gym after months of not going just because I didnt want to sit on ym butt anymore.... so i MOVED IT! i ran to the gym worked out for 30 mins on weights , 15 mins on the treadmill and then ran home! i AM grateful! to have legs to move and and stretch and feel the wind around me.. I am grateful for the cute little birdies I HEard all about me as i was running home.... it feels to be tired from working than to be tired from depressed feelings... Today is a present! hehe I have gratitude for it!